Simply put, the truth comes out when your drunk

as you let your "don't hurt their feelings" guard down... you seem bummed, either hand it over to another admin and take a break (and I don't mean check back everyday or every other day else you will get pissed!) and come back to it later or simply close it via admincp options and have the message say we will reopen when... or like you said shut it down but you should have been banning the negative members after warning them loooong ago.
All this is IMO so take it or leave it but no one and I repeat no one get's a refund on my 2 cents

lol...
S-MAN