[BigJohnny]

like I said, I am able to take other hacks and modify them to do what I want or need, for the most part, but without constant help I'm pretty much useless.
I've also dabbled with some previous programming, It's always interested me, I've done some stuff with Visual Basic, but it was much the same thing again, I was getting pretty good, but I still couldn't figure stuff out on my own or write my own code.... It was basically copy and paste/modify, which is pretty sad..... no where near a real coder, even an amateur one.

I also realize there is no miracle learning source, I do catch stuff when reading, but I find it confusing, I don't learn as well by reading as most other people seem to.

It just makes me feel kind of stupid when I see people writing such elaborate hacks, after having used vBulletin for only a short period of time, or just writing there own period.
I guess you could say I'm jealous, but I want to learn.....